Nun sitze ich hier, gedankenverloren. Die Wärme der Sonne wird von meinem Körper aufgenommen, wie ein Schwamm, der sich voller Wasser saugt. Und dann kommt dieses Gefühl wieder in mir hoch. Dieses Gefühl der Sehnsucht. Ich fühle mich beinahe leer, ausgelaugt und nicht am richtigen Ort. Die Klänge der kleinen Vögel, die eben erwacht sind ertönen in meinem Ohr. Wie gerne würde ich sie ersetzen durch das zarte Zwitschern der Vögel eines anderen Ortes.
Ich denke an Tbilisi. An Georgien. An das Land, in dem alles begann. Die Stadt, mit der ich so eine große Verbundenheit spüre, wie mit sonst keiner auf dieser Welt. Die Straßen Tbilisis. Der abgefallene Putz meiner alten Wohnung auf der Khvichia Straße, nahe der U-Bahn Haltestelle der technischen Universität, auf der Saburtalo Linie gelegen. Die heiteren Gespräche mit meinen Mitbewohnern, das gedankenverlorene Schlendern durch die Stadt. Die Blicke der Menschen, die voller Idealismus sind. Der Geruch des frischen Flieders im Café Purpur. Das Alleinsein in der Altstadt. Ach, was habe ich den Drang mein Leben in dieser Stadt zu verbringen. Vielleicht schaffe ich es dann, die brüchige Fassade der Häuser und meiner Selbst zu verkleiden, dem Traum der Freiheit hingegeben.
A few weeks ago I was back in big B for the birthday party of the year! My day started early, but I was so happy to be in the capital again together with my friend <3 So I packed a suitcase and hurried to the train. Looking forward to tonights evening program I turned on the song Smells like teen spirit from one of my favorite bands ever; Nirvana. As a teenager I was so addicted to all of their songs and decorated my room with Kurt Cobain posters. And tonight promised me a flashback to their decade.
Recently I found myself thinking about nutrition, healthy lifestyle and in general environmental influences for us. Every day we force our body to absorb so many pollutants: plastic, some laundry detergents, cosmetic… all in all these products may irritate our skin and influences ourselves negative.
Over the past few years high quality cosmetic got more and more important to me. I am a huge lover of organic and natural cosmetic, I barely use anything else anymore. At the beginning my skin struggled with the new ingredients, but after using it for a while you’ll definitely see and feel the difference.
This year I already traveled a lot (for some it might not be enough), UK, India, Georgia, Netherlands and finally I ended up in France.
When I lived and worked in Tbilisi, I got to know Vivi, my former flatmate and the loveliest girl ever. We were both in a similar situation in live – I wouldn’t call it midlife crisis, but close to that – we thought a lot, didn’t really know what to do and missed each other. Both of us love traveling more than anything else, but were kind of broke, so we couldn’t do an expensive trip somewhere. But smart as my girl is, she offered me to come to France and visit her. She was so kind to host me and showed me around with her car – we traveled to Tours, Saumur, Angers, Nantes and Bretagne. Although it was just a week, it definitely felt so good to be with a close friend, see something different and breathe – finally!
Oh, Berlin. You’re honestly such a beautiful city!
From 27th of July till 2nd of August I stayed in the shabby-chic-place-to-be Berlin. I got an invitation from Neon Wood, a new opened student apartment house. It is located in Friedrichshain, the cool hipster area, close to Berghain and good vegan food options. I love this area, a friend of mine is also living there, so I have been there a couple of times. It is very close to Frankfurter Tor, from where you can reach the whole city. The interior is very new and super chic. Every apartment has its own small kitchen and bathroom.
This weekend I spent a day with my lovely boyfriend at the botanical garden in Cologne. While living in a bigger city, it is sometimes hard to calm down. Luckily I live nearby a nature reserve and even so it is not far to the botanical garden.
There are a lot of blooming flowers, sounds of birds and wind in the leaves. I enjoyed it so much, especially the smell of fresh lavender.
Summertime, time, time. Child, the living’s easy.
As Janis Joplin filled my mind with her words, I packed all my things for a picnic at the lake. I love this bohemian vibes, soft breezes on your skin, sunshine and bonfires.
I take a good book with me, currently I am reading Ein Philosophisches Lesebuch. It is about all famous philosophers during the decades. I love to read outside, the sound of nature is so calming and makes my soul shine. A pretty dress and I am ready to go!
There is a word in Georgian – თავისუფლების. Tawisupleba. It is mixed out of the words “Head” and “Right” to create its translation – Freedom.
Last year I made the best decision in my life. I traveled to Georgia for four weeks. And there is one day, that will be in my mind forever.
I came out of the train station, it was about 7am. I took a night train from Tbilisi to Batumi. I barely slept that night, so I felt the coldness even more. Half asleep I walked outside and saw the sea. The black sea. The sun was rising, sunbeams kissed my tired skin. And then I met Darina. She is Georgian living in Germany. We decided to walk together the way to the city ( it took us about 1 hour and 30 minutes). I never saw her before. But there was a connection between us. And while we kept going, kept talking, the sun kept rising. I heard the sound of the waves, a sound I’m always connecting with freedom. The waves take the sand, the stones from the shore and keep them inside the deepness of the water. My mind was somewhere else as Darina suddenly told me to turn around. I looked in her eyes and saw a glance. ‘I missed this place so much’, she told me. Her home, her country, her life. I was hooked by her eyes but turned around. The sun covered the mountains in a delicate pink curtain. Wind was in my hair, the smell of salt and freedom in my nose.
For me it is freedom, the sweetness of the ocean, the smoky atmosphere in that little flat. The people around with their wisdom, willingly to share it.
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All I need for the mind was to be led to new stations.
All I needed for the heart was to visit a place of greater storms.
As I closed my book, MTrain by Patti Smith I had that indefinable feeling. It is a feeling that overcomes me when I’m thinking a lot. About my life, future, emotions. I close my eyes for a couple of minutes, focusing on the words. The book feels heavy in my hands. The smell of printing ink and pages I already read five times is filling the room.
As I do love analog photography, I always have my Canon AE 1 with me. Here are some snaps from my daily life.